This is a story of Beth, a mother of two. She has everything in life, absolutely everything.
And yet she finds it impossible to enjoy it – there’s the constant fear that something COULD go wrong the very next moment. Not that it ever has, or that there are any signs of it really going to…
Yet fear does not care. It operates beyond thought. Its cold venom is irrational.
And it has the capacity to spoil everything beautiful in your life…
Beth originally published this post on her blog.
In the past few years I’ve noticed that I had become basically a nervous wreck.
Worrying about things. What kind of things? You name it, I would worry about it! Dying of cancer, my kids getting sick, my husband leaving, my house burning down, my kids being unhappy, my kids being kidnapped, my kids being hurt, bullied, sad, alone, my husband losing his job, having no money, losing my house, having to take the bus, not having the comfortable life that I had grown so accustomed to…
So even though I was only worrying about these things – things that hadn’t even come close to happening – I was making my life so unbearable to live that I had to do something to help myself.
I didn’t want to go on medication as that has been the solution to most of my problems. I wanted to feel better, enjoy my life, enjoy my 2 amazingly content (despite my crazies) beautiful daughters, and my sexy as hell husband who literally adored me and would do anything in the world to make me smile and feel happy once again. Wait, once again: Had I ever really felt that feeling of complete contentment? Sadly, NO!
Feeling so ashamed at this point that I had everything anyone would want to have and was unable to actually enjoy it, I desperately searched for help. I started therapy which was the first thing that started to ease the crazies – but I still needed something more. I know most of you mommies are sitting there thinking that it’s normal to obsess about the welfare of your children but honestly, my friends, it’s not!
Life is for living, and living free of the ‘what if’, the ‘what may’ and the ‘what would’. Yes, life sucks sometimes… But worrying every day, trying to control life and manipulate everyone like a bunch of pieces in a game is also not the answer. I was making my life way too complicated and it was feeling like a jacket that is itchy and you want to throw out even though you spent a fortune on it.
What is TM, you say? Well, ‘TM’ stands for Transcendental Meditation. A from a meditating unlike any other kind. You don’t concentrate, you don’t try, you just simply learn this easy uncomplicated technique – the easiest and most simple thing you can imagine. Despite my trying, in the beginning, to also complicate it – fortunately that simply cannot be done.
Leaving the trap behind
So doing Transcendental Meditation twice a day is quickly dissipating my crazies. I can’t tell you how fortunate I feel to have learned this and to have been blessed with the ability to have this in my life. I am a new person.
I am not nervous, anxious, worried, sad, upset, full of the ‘what if,’ ‘what may’ and ‘what would’. I truly believe from the bottom of my heart that the universe will take care of me and my family.
If you are like I was and you feel you need a change, or you are fine with life, or if you are somewhere in between – try this amazing form of meditation because you will be amazed at how much better your life becomes. I PROMISE! Find a qualified Transcendental Meditation teacher, and it will be the best investment you have ever made for yourself!